The Meaning of Futility

It has been a while since a flower has blossomed from my paper 
and embellished it with its benevolent sign of happiness
My happiness lies in you and it has been absent for as long as you have been
Ever since then, my life has been shrouded in painful darkness

I sit here reminiscing on beautiful memories, 
that once brought me immense joy 
and now they bring profound sadness to my heart
with every stroke of my pen 

Why do I eat this food? 
It only feeds my suffering
Why do I even try? 
My futile efforts only help me climb this mountain, 
in which my downfall lies at the top 
My mind is a convoluted labyrinth of unanswered questions, despair, 
and broken dreams 
Try to explore it and you will find yourself lost in your expedition
Try understanding and you will find a riddle you cannot solve
Regardless, it is too late to save me
I have fallen too deep into my melancholy 

Now I send out my orison, my last resort, 
to the heavens, 
hoping that God will expedite my suffering 
and alleviate this incessant aching in my heart.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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December 26, 2013 at 12:48 AM
Hi Andres , Hope you are enjoying the holidays, -- Your first poem on the soup is excellent for the readers!! Stopping by with a nice, sweet Welcome to Poetry Soup. Wishing you the best when it comes to your poems. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here. Starting with me. SKAT :-) Please drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you like. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND". Hugs* SKAT"
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December 21, 2013 at 7:25 AM
- Welcome to P-Soup, Andres ! - Nice to read your first poem here.:)) - Hope you will have much pleasure to be with us. - Wishing you good luck - have a nice day! - (Comment on the poetry of others and they will comment on yours). - My first greeting to you from Norway. - I will come back to read more.... another day :) - oxox / /Anne-Lise :)
Rocha Avatar
December 21, 2013 at 4:09 PM
Thank you :)
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December 21, 2013 at 7:16 AM
good day Andres, , A nice warm WELCOME to poetry soup. Dropping by to invite you to my latest contest. You will find the contest page on the top left hand side* -Looking forward in following and reading your poetry. Hope to hear from you soon. You will enjoy the community, we are one big happy family. (Drama & Love. LOL) ~ Take Care!! From: your new poet friend @-> LINDA <-@
Rocha Avatar
December 21, 2013 at 4:09 PM
Thank you :)
Hannah Avatar
December 21, 2013 at 2:36 AM
Good work. I'm now glad I decided to see if you'd written anything else :p
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