The Jacob Hour

Consumed with the fervor of the day
In my children's room I knelt alone 
And cowered low before the throne
My mortal sins, O there to cast away

The lights were off, and silence reigns
Alone with me in all the lonely place
I found it opportune to plead for grace
For I knew burden where my spirit stains

And I his sweet pulpiteer would reclaim
My first innocence that bore his image best
And so with guilt and faith set then to wrest
For sovereign of my breast, I marked my aim.

With tears suppliant my heart did pour
And plead for mercy and power more
That I may find my ark an open door
And he my love may keep, and I to soar.

Then suddenly the climate of the silence change
A presence not human, and not met before
Around my shoulder held me to the floor
Faith fled me in awe, my body shook strange

I rose and went from room to room to find
What frivolous friend or child would play
With such a fragile fume of fumbling clay
I stood in emptiness, alone, alone and blind.

Nerving my sense against the certainty of truth
I knelt again, shaking from the first embrace
With form that had no sight, or manifest of face
I knelt as man again and fled as brute.

What God would come down and hug me hard
And near, while with a distant voice call my name
When I was not ready for death or the flame
What was I to do with the presence of the Lord?

I was not set to be a Jacob, to wrestle who 
I could not see, my brawn of faith was thin then
Yet though I stood as his apostle before men
I fled the house, and fear more since none pursue.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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February 28, 2010 at 8:50 AM
L'Nass, Thank you for supporting my contest with your awesome experience. Congratulations, Agape, Moses
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February 27, 2010 at 5:55 PM
My friend, congratulations on your win in the contest with this great write! Peace, L'nass .....audrey
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February 27, 2010 at 4:17 PM
wonderful experience and poem to tellof it L'nass. Congratulations to you my friend. -Robert
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February 27, 2010 at 7:45 AM
You have an amazing spiritual quality in your poetry, Shango. Congratulations on your success in John's contest! Love, Carolyn
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February 27, 2010 at 7:42 AM
Congrats L'Nass on your winning poem and placement in Moses contest... a wonderful win for u to enjoy..luv.. "Sweetheart" of Poetry Soup..Linda-Marie..
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February 2, 2010 at 12:13 PM
Awsome experience L'nass. I had one similar to this, I came away halting upon a thigh. Godly Princes wrestle with angels.Smile! Sincerely, Moses
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February 2, 2010 at 9:21 AM
What an remarkable experience, L'nass! Well-written narrative of an experience you most likely will never forget! Great job, my friend. Peace, Audrey
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