The Game To Play

Ever present Is the feeling of isolation In this midnight city of mass millions You admit, you have pride You can stand independently With confidence Dancing in the light But you have to admit You detest it as well Who ever wants to be alone Whatever can I be doing wrong To not be desired Of company To not be longed for Tis a shame to feel this way For many a moons, One strides by none Try as you may, Nothing seems to be of reach For much to be a fallin out of my fingers Masks ever present on every one Lie to your face Talk behind your back Disregarded once they’re done Come begging for more Once they’re in need The moment you’re gone The moment is gone Miss your shot Your chance is done Measuring your self worth everyday Seems like it’s going down an All time low Not recognizing one’s own Reflection Exclusivity is poison Overbearing thoughts Clouding one’s insight To what is the actual reality Overthinking every single word Every action you took The little girl sitting alone At the cafeteria The shy and quiet one Always lugging around books The ever crier Ever the follower, never the leader Suppose everything leads back to this Once it’s done Never forgotten Seems like all they do is Keep leavin But I will Always remember The ones who stayed The ones who spoke of the truth When I deserved it Not because they supposed My feelings would be hurt The ones who tried The ones who know When I’m laughing on the outside To be only crying on the inside But the ones that left I’ll remember To never trust To never give my heart to To never speak my entirety of truth To only be used for their benefit I may have my silly perks May not be the brightest tool in the box But own the intelligence for where it counts As if no one understands or sees But only see the stupidity that is me For a dancer to be clumsy Is a joke For a model with no fashion sense Is a joke For a singer with no pitch Is a joke Am I a joke to you I may not be as bold To speak what I desire In coherence But I know When I am made the fool I sigh All’s good and mighty But nothing is ever forgotten I may play the weak But I play the strongest when it counts No one’s game to play Am I