The Feeling

That feeling, I'm not used to, That rush, What feels like adrenalin, To those who do not know it, I do not remember, That feeling, My memories, I remember, But without feeling, I remember, Like a movie, Without sound, I want that feeling, But I feel the opposite, The moments I feel it, I can't control it, A rough childhood, Always stressed, Always wondering, What is going to happen next, Never moving on, Just swallowing, To move on, But when I feel it, I cherish it, That feeling, A surge I cant control, I sing, I smile, I laugh, I get energetic, This rare moment, Only happens, In important time, When God helps me, When a girl connects with me, When moving on, Is an option for me, I love this feeling, I want this feeling, I just need the strength, To grab this feeling, I cant do it alone, I need to find someone, To help me, To hold on, To that feeling, I need happiness.