The Eternal Question: God, No God, Maybe God
Sometimes I fear I've
never known you
Like a leaf might feel
It knows its mother tree
Until she sheds its crispy remains,
Only to let its pieces wither
Into the same substance
That gave them both life
I wonder
Is this life?
To live,
Only to languish;
To love,
Only to lament;
To long,
Only to lose?
To render,
Only to revoke?
This is what I fear you have become
It is what my body understands
But my blood refuses to accept
My blood -
Engraved upon the palms of
Your hands -
The demands of justice
Cleansed by your grace
That transformed me
But not before my bandwidth snapped,
And the strands left beating
Forgot how to feel
Who am I?
A shepherd's lamb?
Or a damned soul -
My sole purpose for servitude?
I haven't known what to believe,
Weaving in between the lines of earth and water -
A dangerous place to be,
Where crocodiles lie waiting
For the one who lingers a little... too... long...
Snap
I've never really believed in fairytales
I used to believe in love
And I long to believe in both
I suppose the one thing waiting has taught me
Is that belief is a choice,
And sometimes choosing burns you,
But that doesn't necessarily mean
You were wrong in the choosing -
Maybe fairytales were written for a reason
For reasons beyond human reasoning -
For seasons come and seasons go,
Just as the sun rises
And the sun sets
But
If I am set on believing
In eternal winters
And immortal nights,
Then spring will never come,
Neither the sun rise
Maybe that is how hell has come to be -
By choosing to disbelieve that which is real,
That which is truth,
That which is light,
That which is life
That which is written
Into each chasm
Of our inner and outer shells,
That which dwells in the very cells
Of our existence-
For to deny life is to deny oneself
How could that not be hell
Itself?
So
My choice?
Truthfully,
I don't know you,
Though
I know I need to
The real you
I'm not confident in what I will find,
But I know what I must do
And all that's left
Is trust
And the choosing
Copyright © Rebecca Kiser | Year Posted 2025
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