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The Enemy Within

Racing thoughts filled with confusion
Feelings of impending dread
A 2500 mile journey to travel
But I’m not straight in my head

All alone on those highway roads
I picture I’m starting to slip
Three medication cocktails to sober me along
Yet none of them seem to stick

Heart pounding, clenched hands
I search for any way out
Of this madness, I must emerge
But I’m filled with terror and doubt

Why has this disease befallen me?
What was my childhood sin?
Always fighting this mental battle
With the enemy within

Copyright © Christine Costello | Year Posted 2014

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Brian Johnston Date: 9/11/2014 1:33:00 PM It is not only bi-polar people who struggle with such feelings Christine. As a Christian I struggle as well, though my life might seem like a walk in the park to you. And I'm angry to at times with God. Like when my sister's first child was born prematurely and died within hours of his birth. Everyone you meet on the street is dying of a terminal disease called life. What are we to do with that? There may be answers but none of them are simple. From a recent poem, "Life's caveat, 'not easy!' " Login to Reply

Brenda Meier-Hans Date: 9/9/2014 1:25:00 PM As I'm sitting watching Dr. Oz talking to a mother who's son finally after years of problems was diagnosed with this sad sickness I decided to come over to read some of your poetry and this was the first one I opened. I pray you can find peace and the help you need to cope. Please don't ever think you are being punished for something you did. Jesus died so we could be forgiven. He did it because he loves us not to punish us for things. Login to Reply

Robert Lindley Date: 9/6/2014 7:00:00 PM I had an ex-girlfriend 40 years ago that was bipolar. I loved her dearly but she forced me away deliberately. It is a very bad state to be in and prayer and meditation works. That is how my brother's wife has coped so well for over 30 years now. Your write is a very fine one!! Login to Reply

Regina Mcintosh Date: 9/5/2014 11:24:00 PM I'm bipolar, so I can definitely relate. Jesus gets me through it all though. God bless you and love and prayers, Gina Login to Reply Christine Costello Date: 9/6/2014 9:01:00 AM Regina- I have bipolar disorder also-sometimes it is such a struggle to manage so I write about it and yes-I pray about it too. Take care and thank you for commenting on my poem. Christine :-)

Jan Allison Date: 9/5/2014 3:56:00 PM My sister suffers from depression so i can relate to this write and my heart goes out to you. I wrote a poem with exactly the same title about my husbands cancer! Hugs Jan xxx Login to Reply Christine Costello Date: 9/5/2014 4:29:00 PM Thank you Jan- I guess many of us have enemies within. :-( Christine