The Day I Saw God

yesterday or was it today? i can't really tell i saw God more clearly than i've ever seen anything she was struggling to breath unable to understand why everything was pain why she'd been so alone away from all those she loved so much her eyes bleary and fading joy erased but we were there with her she could feel us again her children and sisters huddled against her equally at a loss for one last image but the last image she gave me was when the sedative finally kicked in and i sat face to face with her gently stroking her beautiful head she finally made sounds of joy again or they could have been pain but i think they were joy i think i saw joy again in her eyes i think the medicine had relieved the fear and pain just enough for her to feel the joy of me loving her but that moment was cut short as they took her away i cried “goodbye sweet baby” sweet Angel, sweet Love then i fell apart completely the next time I saw God all the life had departed from her all that remained for me was her still, beautiful form eyes open, but lifeless and my eyes are open, but lifeless until I see God again