The Day

Today is the day I decided I'm not going to let my love for you hurt me anymore. No more staying up past midnight wishing you were by my side. Or being crumpled up on the floor waiting for our issues to reside. I gave you my world moon and stars and you took it and ran and instead of apology you asked for my hand. You feed me these crumbs from rolls dripping with butter onto the sidewalk while you expect me to lick it up. Well my tongue is sore. My ankles are worn. I am tired of chasing after you while you treat me like nothing but a thorn. Id plant you a field of flowers so you'd see something close enough to as beautiful as you are But you picked my flowers and you threw them away. I gave you my everything, my heart, my hopes, dreams and more Yet you give me rude insults and stories, well babe drop the lore. Because these ideas of me that you're feeding into the mouths of your so called friends who were once mine seem to be stories that are combined. Were you jealous of me? My success and my smile? So you ran and ran and took it farther than a mile And by the time I caught up you were once again heating me up like a dial. Were they combined with the hatred you feel for me because I reacted poorly to your actions? Or was it because of all my retractions? Yes my memory would put dory to shame but i promise you what i felt was real. I loved you more than watching the sun rise. I loved you more than my favorite hibachi rice. I loved you more than the hundreds of dollars i spent on you Or the hours I stayed up on school nights just to make sure you had a gift on our anniversary. Was it really that meaningless? Mean and abusive is what they call me right? Well, do they know the way you made me cry? The way I couldn't breathe because I was trapped by the weight of your words and my breath was taken by the breeze. I sat in my room for days, weeks, months waiting for you. Waiting for you to call me baby and the days to feel less hazy And maybe I have an appetite today. Maybe I'll have a second to feel right today. A lot of things are questionable. But my love for you was not. I proved it in every way I could and although I wasn't perfect I loved you. I won the who loves who more contest. Today is the day I decide you're not worth my happiness.