The Cold Heart of Consequence

if only i had made better choices if only i had said no if only i knew what and where love was if only i had simply remained faithful i would be sleeping in a warm, comfortable king size bed and not struggling to stay warm under a cheap throw blanket in my old 1991 ford taurus damn right you reap what you sow the roots are mighty poisonous the staying power of distrust and the stained change that comes with it is not worth the time or the energy treasure and cherish the One that rocked with you from the very raw begin finding another even close to similar is like going through a car wash full of briar vines the main difference is that a good heart is being ripped, torn, and scarred apologies are like sandpaper in a melancholy desert with no sign of relief when all is done and in the personal history books, nothing salvageable ever becomes of it though quite a few recover, it is still never the same because of the permanent stain....no matter how hard the work some may disagree, but what about their eyes on the ceiling in the dark when lost in thought if only i had made better choices if only i had said no if only i knew what and where love was if only i had simply remained faithful i would be loungin' in my favorite, cozy chair and not listening to (sittin' on) the dock of the bay in a daze of confusion wasting time