The Coin
The Coin
I am a survivor at all costs
I refuse to lay down my life
Living the Good Fight of Faith
Until my steps cease to be
Someone said to me recently
Looking me straight in the eyes
Said, I mourned over your death
When you almost died a few years ago
Frankly, she said I am over it now
You look worse than I have ever seen you
Yet you are always smiling and helping others
Why don’t you just let him take you home?
I was riddled with emotions as tears filled my eyes
I took a deep breath placed her hand in mine
Sweetie don’t you see I have done that already?
He has not called for me yet, I assure you of this
What I endure with all that is failing in me
Is a far greater burden then you carry in grieving
Over your friend here dwindling physically away
I ask for nothing from you except your support
There are no requirements that say you have to
I will understand if it is too hard for you but
Remember I will always love you, I set you free
She fell apart wrapped her arms around me
Then whispered in my ear I am just so worried about you
You are my best friend and I feel helpless all the time
I smiled, It’s ok I’m tired too but until its time I
Am here such as it is for the duration living in Grace
There is a fine line when someone is very ill for
A long time that pushes to protect them from
Anymore sorrow as the mind naturally detaches itself
From the ill to heal and move and Forward
We who are ill need to understand those frailties
Of the human mind that wearies those we love
That is why I am always jovial on the phone and
Smiling when friends come to visit both sides of
The coins in this matter are very hard to endure
I found that mercy for their feelings rose in me
Saturating me with compassion for their fears and sorrow
My walk is inevitable but I must protect their futures
At any cost
This is where
Love will shine the brightest
Forever
Carole Cookie Arnold
Copyright © Carole Cookie Arnold | Year Posted 2012
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