The Battle For My Teen Mind

The battles began when I entered my teens. The voices challenged me on so many things. At times I would feel tortured, how was deep pain. Afraid to tell anyone. I felt so ashamed. Thought I were only weak but that was not the truth. This thing was very common in almost all the worlds youth. In my own thoughts, I struggled, couldn’t tell my best friend. Sometimes I felt with death my troubles would end. I didn’t measure up to peers and that made me feel weak. Didn’t want to disappoint parents ,their help I didn’t seek. I learned to shift focus through drinking and weed. Partying, loose sex might help fill my need. Diving deep in these things kept the bad thoughts away. I watch this in teens around me today. Looking back I lost focus nothing else I could see. There was plenty of love being offered to me. So focused on the voices inside of my head. Like one that said Ken you'd be better off dead. Had I dropped my pride and let Jesus come in. The vortex of anxiety would've come to an end. To teens when the battles seem too big to win. Just say “Jesus help” and watch him step in.