The Addiction of Bipolar

I wake to cold sweats scratches
From Sleeping on this broken mattress
Outside is cold but its my home, My palace
My brain crashes from this addiction
I so I need that fix to get me back high
I'm trying to fix the broken pieces missing inside
I've seen heroin take my best friends life
Yet I still inject it, Why? 
Why wont this addiction just Roll over
Now I'm diseased with this thing called bi polar
A world trapped in eternal sadness
For others beautiful for some so numb
While I'm covered in an eternal blackness
They say I need to take these pills before 
I turn to madness
But there my thorn digging my side
As sharp as a cactus 
No wonder I have this cuts of pure madness
Because it aches stomach pains Nausea vomiting, Insomnia
Give me a story of drama
But then my dis honer
Had to cut my wrist to see that this blood
is thicker than is vodka
Slowly sinking under water
Holding a ton of bricks on my shoulder
Only makes me stronger
In order to move on we have to see the rain
live through the pain
before we get that sunshine once again!
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Dietrich Avatar
November 27, 2014 at 9:23 PM
this is so sad and you write eloquently about it. I hope you find help for your addictions and that you get good help for bi polar. It must be very hard to live with. All my best to you.
Walker Avatar
December 5, 2014 at 12:07 PM
Andrea thanks for the lovely message and you worry no need as this poem is VERY VERY loosely based thanks once again :)
Fleming Avatar
November 27, 2014 at 2:32 PM
Beautiful, Heartfelt poem...truly pulled on my heartstrings!! :) john.
Walker Avatar
December 5, 2014 at 12:09 PM
Thanks John I hope I didn't pull to hard lol thanks again :)
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