That Fleeting Feeling

so much is held within silence, that has yet to be appreciated while everything that is nothingess, yearns to be satiated and elated with understandings that are demanding too much I've been searching this whole time for what was already there as the the crimson and hazel eyed me down with a stare to remind me just how kindly that life remains unfair unfair in words that could never be expressed forever leaving my heart with not but a guess, a request that keeps me utterly hanging, still un-changing between two crooked dimensions simply, only longing for the attention spent my words trying hard to be cheap while sanity seemed to take the back seat I could only try to keep calm for so long before I tasted the meaning of this beautiful song sing to me the meaning of what it means to smile perhaps just to lay in the sun for a while, in comfortable silence that's just understood, i get it, you get it- its all good but maybe im just dreaming and it wasn't okay for the clouds seemed to cover the sun on that day should've just stayed and spared my last change, then maybe my words would be slightly arranged. but this deranged state of mind can find reason for being, it's just another feeling that to experience is fleeting. in the end I remembered I had a voice, with the realization that happiness is always a choice.