Thana

Thana “Do not be afraid you don’t know what storm I’ve asked her to walk through”- God She was in a bad state of mind Not realizing she was affecting mine My eyes pressed tightly together While she reaches for anything she can find Every beating remain as memories That affected my life daily I wish I can say I could look up to you I wish you looked me in the eye and said I love you too But I’m just a disappointment, so you beat me You’ll tell me to close my mouth and watch me as bruises form on my body All I asked was for attention but only received rejection We remained so distant that there was really no connection Feeling like a lost child with nobody to love I had no Guidance My fears hidden behind my silence You weren’t a mother so I had to rename you So I called you Thana which means death And at one point I wished that upon you Because of you, every night I have nightmares But I was afraid to speak so everyone was unaware But now I found my voice I finally decided to make a choice Not to follow your habits But to follow my dreams and use my own talents Its funny how everyone thinks you’re so sweet But each night you remind me of how my dad left me Thana, I will always remember what you taught me To be better than you And to fight for me