Tailspin

I was sent in a flutter With the news you had uttered An unexpected shock that caught me off guard Like a solid sucker punch Straight and square into my guts The breath froze inside of my lungs with its force I was too stunned to know what to say We have heart-to-heart talks nearly everyday Was there some sort of turn of events that I missed? Loaded feelings erupted and began spinning Negative thoughts started winning My heart pounded into a tailspin flying right out of my chest Was this about me or about us? This wasn't something that we discussed! My first thoughts came rushing forth to the rescue Torrential tears steadily flowing Insecurities and fears growing With my hearstrings clutched tight, I held my tongue What happened to the healing of that inner child? The one whose mother's-like love he longed to find? Needed time to mend and sort out his ordeal? Not to give up on love, was my advice for you Now, I wonder, should those words I could chew? It's so hard to let go when all you want to do is hold on Time is needed to really think this through Listening is key to hearing what intuition is telling you And when you jump the gun, it always guarantees a false start July 19, 2020