Tablets On Top of a Tablet

tablets on top of a tablet thinking about existence and the what and the why shaking a bottle of water fighting with the stubbornness of my reluctance knowing i do not have the heart trying to force the hardcore in continuously stepping aside for my teddy bear exterior and interior remembering i cannot fight God's creation tablet becomes a sliding board over a trash can choosing life starting over talking to myself shutting my eyes tightly with face drowned in my hands wondering how it all got to this....how it all got here....to this point....this destination blowing off the powdery remains from the tablets on top of a tablet remembering snowfalls and hot chocolate with marshmallows remembering saturday morning cartoons in late september remembering what people like about me past and present thinking about the less fortunate or the even lesser fortunate realizing that i do not have it so bad opening my eyes to the steadiness, the stability, and the consistency in my life grabbing me a dr. pepper from the fridge putting the leftover bacon cheeseburger pizza in the microwave cutting on the tv and turning it to 'snapped' stifling an expletive and slapping myself in the face wondering what the hell i was thinking.... finally realizing Life Is God....Life Is Good....