Swan V Phoenix

The swan in me wanted to die The phoenix in me asked why The swan in me couldn't say So the phoenix said not today Every time I hit the verse I felt like I was living a curse Everything I said so real But I could never heal Every time I went backwards I felt disingenuous in my words Like nothing I said was true But something started to brew The swan in me said it was too late The phoenix said redemption is fate The swan in me asked why The phoenix didn't want me to die Every time I stepped outside Deep down I just wanted to hide The sun burned too bright I wasn't ready to fight Every time I drank liquor My heart became sicker But I'm finally ready to grow And this I can show The phoenix in me loves me The swan had to reluctantly agree With two halves I became whole And it truly saved my soul