Surving Suicide Made Me Stronger

I have a very sad
story to my life. 
A life of depression. 
Not feeling worthy. 
Family fights. 

I got it in my mind
that I was better off
leaving the world behind. 
Surely it would go on 
without me. 

5 attempts Later. 
It took me to see. 
The world had a lot 
to offer me. 
I began to live again. 

What could have killed 
me made me stronger.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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Smith Avatar
May 11, 2017 at 3:50 PM
This touched my heart on such a personal basis. You are beautiful in every way. I am so sorry you were caused such pain. I hold so much inner pain myself and I have always felt so alone..Thank you for sharing. I know it is not always easy putting our pain into words. Be blessed
Brearley Avatar
July 23, 2017 at 5:02 AM
Thank you so much so I took so long to get back to you. It was a tough season in my life. But I overcame it. Now if only I could overcome writer's block lol.
Alexander Avatar
May 11, 2017 at 2:47 PM
I understand your well written words and feel your pain but I have learnt keep positive and positive people around you helped me as well as writing which is my release well done great work
Brearley Avatar
July 23, 2017 at 5:04 AM
I have learned to accept people as they are, and not try to fight for change in them. That has helped me.
Cozart Avatar
May 9, 2017 at 5:50 PM
very profound. indeed it's when we are at our worst we find the strength we never knew we had. Bravo.
Brearley Avatar
July 23, 2017 at 5:04 AM
Amen to that! Thank you!
Kimathi Avatar
April 12, 2017 at 4:25 AM
Hi Heather. Your survival is a sign that life has a lot to offer you, in ways you could never imagine. Stay strong, and know that many people support you, and understand all what you're going through.... Thank you for being alive for yourself, and us all!! *^_^*
Brearley Avatar
July 23, 2017 at 5:04 AM
Thank you so much Teddy!
Loggia Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 3:36 PM
I read this poem with a lot of happiness that you are still with us and that your attempts failed and you have found reason to stay on this earth and experience more of what life has to offer you. I have been a bystander to a sibling who went through a suicidal period, it was one of the most gut wrenching experiences of my life, because I felt so powerful to help him. I appreciate your openness to write about such a heartbreaking truth. Thank you
Brearley Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 3:39 PM
Thank you so much
Loggia Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 3:37 PM
I had meant powerless (typo)
Confer Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 2:45 PM
Hallelujah Jesus brought us through Sis I was suicidal to but The Holy Spirit and Jesus ransomed me! Beautiful poem so strong so brace well done Bride of Jesus
Brearley Avatar
July 23, 2017 at 5:05 AM
Thank you so much and Amen Donald.
Confer Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 2:45 PM
Hallelujah Jesus brought us through Sis I was suicidal to but The Holy Spirit and Jesus ransomed me! Beautiful poem so strong so brace well done Bride of Jesus
Brearley Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 2:50 PM
Wow thank Donald
Sergi Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 9:44 AM
Hi Heather: Forgive my horrible email. Your poems have a great sincerity and I welcome you. The past is history, The future is a mystery and today is a gift. That's why it's called the present. Eleanor Roosevelt.
Brearley Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 2:55 PM
No worries I never saw a horrible email but thank you for your kind words
Sergi Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 9:39 AM
Hi Heather, nicety know you. Your poems have a great sincerity and I welcome you. Life is precious. Remember that theist is history, the future is a mystery and today is a gift. That's why it's called the present. Eleanor Roosevelt.
Brearley Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 2:56 PM
Thank you
Timperley Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 8:10 AM
Old Buck hit the nail square. No one has ever survived suicide, it is final. Many survive an attempt is all. If He ain't done with you, He ain't done with you. Your job is not over. You have proved that by posting here. God Bless. D.
Brearley Avatar
April 10, 2017 at 2:55 PM
Thank you for your kind words
Buck Avatar
April 9, 2017 at 7:44 PM
Heather: This is no place for me to preach and I won't, but if that is a "self portrait" all I'll say is: He isn't finished with you yet. :o) Stay strong and thank you for sharing your words with all of us on the soup. oldbuck
Brearley Avatar
April 9, 2017 at 7:46 PM
Thank you so much
Allison Avatar
April 9, 2017 at 4:54 PM
I can't imagine the mental pain someone must go through to contemplate ending their lives - love the upbeat ending Heather:-) hugs Jan xx
Brearley Avatar
April 9, 2017 at 7:46 PM
It was a struggle
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