Surrender

Alone, I watch the waves roll in With a transcendent calm Bright sun pierces my searching gaze Bathes my skin in a sea of warmth But on the inside, A dark storm reigns Desecrating my calm utopia Leaving shattered, bleeding emotions I fight, But the storm stifles my attempts Burrowing deeper and deeper within my heart Only leaving ashes in its path The mask I wear is a façade Carefully sculpted with exquisite design But the terror within Creeps between the lines That don’t quite fit The pieces I try to make fit, Yet I know never will My mask shrouds nothing Slowly burning me from the inside out The treacherous fire is burning me alive My heart pounds heavily in my chest Crushing the cage, meant to protect it Until I feel flesh ripping Ribs protruding out through torn, bleeding muscle And raw, mutilated skin hanging limply As thick, crimson blood flows from my veins My still beating heart burns in the sun’s rays The blood stains the delicate, white lace Of my gown Rushes down my arms Dripping off my fingertips Into the pure, salty sea I stand in The sea dances with my agony As black, rolling clouds gather in the sky Stirring up the sea The waves become colder with power And wrap around me Embracing me Soothing my pain As the water permeates my lungs Stealing my breath Rescuing me from a world of pain Never to hurt again