Suicided Kids

Suicided Kids* Mothers of suicided kids grieve with a guilt that arrives immediately… taking up permanent residency. Unbidden and uninvited settling in the voided heart space of a dear son dear daughter remorse... to never leave ever. A hollow voice stuck on repeat-repeat asking the same questions: what did I miss... what didn’t I understand? what could I have done? One doesn’t get a second chance with a suicided kid. One can never do better. There’s never a next time to try harder. *term from Sinead O’Connor