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Suicide [feelings Of]

Someone please save me from this God awful place, where ever I go it's just a rat race. People don't care how I feel or what I say,but if they aren't careful they'll be sorry someday. There are so many people I love that are dying, there's times that I feel like I just can't stop crying. My mind is a mess,and my thoughts are unclear, the day of my suicide I feel is near. I am always letting people take advantage of me,I wish they would open their eyes,and see what I see. I want for my life to just be done,I am tired of wondering which way I should run. There are many people who love me no doubt, but if they lived what I lived, they to would want out. I've tried to figure out why people do what they do, but I know someday soon it will all be through.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009




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Date: 7/12/2013 11:01:00 AM
Congrats for your win, dear. Hope you are feeling ok today. It's always good to see you posting new poems or getting on a winners list.
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Date: 7/11/2013 10:14:00 AM
Congrats on your well deserved win. AO
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Date: 7/10/2013 3:10:00 PM
My BIG HEARTY CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR AWESOME WIN AND VERY BEAUTIFUL POEM my dear friend, Colleen! Thank you so much for sharing as well! Have a great day. love lots, Leonora
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Date: 7/10/2013 1:12:00 PM
While I appreciate your emotionally expressed words, and it's nice you placed a win. Reach out to some that can help you, please. Hugs and warm Smiles
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Date: 7/10/2013 7:56:00 AM
From my personal experience, going off meds isn't good. if you are going to go off your meds, tell your doctor to help you do so. Your doc will object, as he/she should, but will probably help you. Don't do cold turkey! I don't know where you live, but you could contact a chapter of DBSA, a support group for people like you and me. I belong, and I'm glad I do. (www.dbsalliance.org/)The site can connect you with local groups and facilitators. My best hopes to you, and my concern... Jack
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Date: 7/9/2013 6:39:00 PM
Hope is there if people let it in. There is so much to live for and so much love in the world. Please try to find it. Hugs!!
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Date: 7/9/2013 5:47:00 PM
Colleen, I live in a world where suicide is common. I have seen first-hand the pain it takes to get to that place. While I appreciate the power of the poem you've written, I am afraid for you. Help is available if you need it. Please read my poem "I Am As I Am" so you will understand where I'm coming from. Feel free to soupmail me. Jack
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Date: 7/9/2013 5:24:00 PM
Coleen, sweetheart, Suicide would only succeed in depriving us of loving you. You worked your way into our hearts and now you want to break them.... Shame on you... Please stay.... Congrats.... Jake
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Date: 7/9/2013 4:27:00 PM
Know where you're coming from here Colleen...Heartwrenching and beautiful...We have more in common than you may realize...Please do me the honor of reading my entry in this same contest...Thanks and congrats - Tim
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Date: 7/9/2013 2:38:00 PM
Hello Colleen, you are an amazing poem.. Congratulations... xox~ LINDA
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Date: 12/7/2009 8:58:00 PM
There is no release through suicide.. u think there is now but its never the way.. there is a plan for your life... don't throw it away Colleen... be brave and fight... if for no one else.. but U ... blessings.. luv.. "Sweetheart" of Poetry Soup...
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Date: 12/2/2009 6:02:00 PM
i see you have a following. john
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Date: 11/29/2009 8:45:00 PM
I really do feel this poem I'm going through this now and now have to go go to a therapist (forced) but even though I want to just fly away from this I can't. I really like how these words go together I'm a fan of your poetry
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Date: 11/28/2009 1:04:00 PM
It's couplet form again Coleen. You'd want in in groupings of 4 IF say Line 1 and 3 rhymed or 2 and 4. Hope I'm helping not upsetting. Light & Love (The message is a very important one!)
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Date: 11/13/2009 9:00:00 PM
your poem really spoke to me
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Date: 11/13/2009 5:56:00 PM
you are so true with this poem it aint even funny...ive thought of it, i sometimes still do...but for some reason i cant pull the trigger...ive turned in all my pain and sadness and turn it into poems, some are a little happy when others are just harsh...good job with the poem.
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Date: 11/8/2009 12:40:00 PM
I've been here and left. ;-) Life has shown me that strength is gained from the constructive elements we fabricate and weave into our realities and from what we get from sharing our lives with others; friends, associates, family members, etc. You have a fantastic way of communicated a very real attitude to suicide and the bleakness associated with an individual in it throes. ~<><
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Date: 11/8/2009 12:37:00 PM
pain can be profound and make an artist out of it sufferers
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Date: 10/18/2009 1:38:00 PM
Stick around Colleen. I know where you're coming from. Read my Unanswered Cry. We'll never figure out why people do what they do. Please find someone to talk to, okay?
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