Suicide [feelings Of]

Someone please save me 
from this God awful place,
where ever I go it's 
just a rat race.

People don't care how I
feel or what I say,but
if they aren't careful
they'll be sorry someday.

There are so many people
I love that are dying,
there's times that I feel
like I just can't stop crying.

My mind is a mess,and
my thoughts are unclear,
the day of my suicide
I feel is near.                                      

I am always letting people
take advantage of me,I
wish they would open their
eyes,and see what I see.

I want for my life to just
be done,I am tired of
wondering which way
I should run.

There are many people
who love me no doubt,
but if they lived what I lived,
they to would want out.

I've tried to figure out why
people do what they do,
but I know someday soon
it will all be through.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Dietrich Avatar
July 12, 2013 at 11:01 AM
Congrats for your win, dear. Hope you are feeling ok today. It's always good to see you posting new poems or getting on a winners list.
Oyewole Avatar
July 11, 2013 at 10:14 AM
Congrats on your well deserved win. AO
Gasun Avatar
July 10, 2013 at 3:10 PM
My BIG HEARTY CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR AWESOME WIN AND VERY BEAUTIFUL POEM my dear friend, Colleen! Thank you so much for sharing as well! Have a great day. love lots, Leonora
Gildersleeve Avatar
July 10, 2013 at 1:12 PM
While I appreciate your emotionally expressed words, and it's nice you placed a win. Reach out to some that can help you, please. Hugs and warm Smiles
Jordan Avatar
July 10, 2013 at 7:56 AM
From my personal experience, going off meds isn't good. if you are going to go off your meds, tell your doctor to help you do so. Your doc will object, as he/she should, but will probably help you. Don't do cold turkey! I don't know where you live, but you could contact a chapter of DBSA, a support group for people like you and me. I belong, and I'm glad I do. (www.dbsalliance.org/)The site can connect you with local groups and facilitators. My best hopes to you, and my concern... Jack
Bateson Avatar
July 9, 2013 at 6:39 PM
Hope is there if people let it in. There is so much to live for and so much love in the world. Please try to find it. Hugs!!
Jordan Avatar
July 9, 2013 at 5:47 PM
Colleen, I live in a world where suicide is common. I have seen first-hand the pain it takes to get to that place. While I appreciate the power of the poem you've written, I am afraid for you. Help is available if you need it. Please read my poem "I Am As I Am" so you will understand where I'm coming from. Feel free to soupmail me. Jack
Posey Avatar
July 9, 2013 at 5:24 PM
Coleen, sweetheart, Suicide would only succeed in depriving us of loving you. You worked your way into our hearts and now you want to break them.... Shame on you... Please stay.... Congrats.... Jake
Ryerson Avatar
July 9, 2013 at 4:27 PM
Know where you're coming from here Colleen...Heartwrenching and beautiful...We have more in common than you may realize...Please do me the honor of reading my entry in this same contest...Thanks and congrats - Tim
A   Avatar
July 9, 2013 at 2:38 PM
Hello Colleen, you are an amazing poem.. Congratulations... xox~ LINDA
Sweetheart Avatar
December 7, 2009 at 8:58 PM
There is no release through suicide.. u think there is now but its never the way.. there is a plan for your life... don't throw it away Colleen... be brave and fight... if for no one else.. but U ... blessings.. luv.. "Sweetheart" of Poetry Soup...
Loving Iii Avatar
December 2, 2009 at 6:02 PM
i see you have a following. john
Spier Avatar
November 29, 2009 at 8:45 PM
I really do feel this poem I'm going through this now and now have to go go to a therapist (forced) but even though I want to just fly away from this I can't. I really like how these words go together I'm a fan of your poetry
Guzzi Avatar
November 28, 2009 at 1:04 PM
It's couplet form again Coleen. You'd want in in groupings of 4 IF say Line 1 and 3 rhymed or 2 and 4. Hope I'm helping not upsetting. Light & Love (The message is a very important one!)
Gonzalez Avatar
November 13, 2009 at 9:00 PM
your poem really spoke to me
Unknown Avatar
November 13, 2009 at 5:56 PM
you are so true with this poem it aint even funny...ive thought of it, i sometimes still do...but for some reason i cant pull the trigger...ive turned in all my pain and sadness and turn it into poems, some are a little happy when others are just harsh...good job with the poem.
Fish Avatar
November 8, 2009 at 12:40 PM
I've been here and left. ;-) Life has shown me that strength is gained from the constructive elements we fabricate and weave into our realities and from what we get from sharing our lives with others; friends, associates, family members, etc. You have a fantastic way of communicated a very real attitude to suicide and the bleakness associated with an individual in it throes. ~<><
Dyer Avatar
November 8, 2009 at 12:37 PM
pain can be profound and make an artist out of it sufferers
Hilliker Avatar
October 18, 2009 at 1:38 PM
Stick around Colleen. I know where you're coming from. Read my Unanswered Cry. We'll never figure out why people do what they do. Please find someone to talk to, okay?
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