Suicide

NOTE ON THE POEM Suicide ideation torments and afflicts the lives of millions of people around the world. In my own life, the pain and torment of suicidal thoughts drove me in desperation to God; and to faith in his only begotten Son, Christ Jesus. Therein I found salvation, hope, peace, and the means by which to overcome such destructive thoughts. As scripture says: But be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind. Romans 12:2. 1Corinthians 15:3-4, Romans 10:8-10, Acts 2:38-39. KJV. Some kind of dark impulse Of heart Of soul Of mind Leads you to this place Of impending doom, And after years of suffering In silence Of staring into the depths Of the human soul Of constant disappointment Throughout a short and painful life, You've arrived here as a broken man Cold sweat running down your forehead Your tongue as dry as the desert sand And the last thoughts of a very troubled mind, Gun in hand Trembling with fear One last deep breath A loud bang Then nothing else... And later when it's all over And the blood is coagulating on the floor And someone arrives to find the body Cold and stiff as a marble statue, There ascends into the eerie silence A loud hysterical scream of madness, And later still, The awful question why... W.A CHOLT. Copyright Fergal O Reilly 2005. Posted 15th April 2019.