Sudden Thoughts During a Hard Sleep

colorblind and smelling flowers stuck in the past again missing mom wishing i had not spent all my money on my last trip thoughts of the fun within thinking of my most emotionally draining heartbreak onanism wants to hold me at gunpoint again shotgun blast urination ignoring the blood within 3AM comes and me wan go back to dreamland not thinking about leaky roofs, max romeo thinking about the next video that moves me north all the while i look at her sleep i thank God for her as a result i fall asleep knowing better now