Stuck In My Thoughts

I sit, I stare. Possibly hoping that my pencil will write for me The page free of words, Other then the ones I didn’t write I sit, I stare. Thinking of something That I could write. My mind blank, numb, unfeeling I sit, I stare. Nothing My eyes welling up with tears I don’t know why I sit, I stare. Blinking back tears A paper i can’t do Now I can barely see I sit, I stare. My mind now racing Thinking about things I don't want to think about A tear slides down my cheek I sit, I stare. Hiding my pain No one can know That i'm hurting I sit, I stare. People all around me Talking, laughing I feel so alone But no one can know, so I sit, I stare, and cover it all with a smile :)