Still Tarnished

I still remember that one time I fell into the lust filled puddles that settled where your eyes once were we both know it was over and over again that i'd willingly dove in I replay you in my mind here's a secret never have I ever remained so submissive and committed a true fool, I am but why did you have to hold me so secure kissed my eyelids, painted my orgasms= gold couldn't you taste that my soul was tarnished with the acidity that the last lover spewed my way pacing back N forth ...was devising how to divulge my yearning for you until i woke up and remembered that you belong to her silly me.