Sticky Note Thoughts

whens the last time i was genuinely happy? when you held me close so tight that i felt nothing but love the whole world around me and all its problems vanished but then theres that switch in my brain that switch that turns it all around made me realize you werent holding me i held YOU. at the time i needed you most i was YOUR support helped you through one of the most difficult times of ¨your¨ life weird how my brain works right? my last time ¨genuinely happy¨ was helping you cope while i was drowning in my own sadness every muscle hurt from all the crying i did i needed you but that wasnt important to you you got the support you needed while i stayed here stuck in a rut in a never ending cycle of pain but at least i got to imagine how it might feel if you cared.