Star In a Black Hole

Your presence echos In the shadows of doubt Living has lost its light- Unable to catch my breath I retreat I surrender It doesn’t make sense And life keeps going- Faster it seems And as the tsunami hits- You relive it again I now hate hospitals I did before But now it’s confirmed It doesn’t matter if it was fate Or timing- I still hate them And the memory they bring It’s scraped into my brain With a dull knife I never knew you could feel pain from your head to your toes Never really able to catch your breath But you move on- You have to And there’s moments of joy with habitual smiles Under a nervous wreck- A volcano Ready to erupt at any moment Any thought Any spiral. If only one more day If only the promise of one more conversation Some sort of closure Anything to fill this empty void A loss star trapped in a black hole