Speculations

I know there's something you wanna say 'Cause you ain't the same as yesterday's yesterday You're far more distant from me then you used to be Something's wrong - stopping you from being free You're choking on whatever it is you wanna say I promise though, I'll be totally okay I promise whatever you say - I'll eventually move on 'Cause people have been doing this to me for far too long Why do I feel like you've told me lies? Why do I feel like - now - our friendship's compromised? You told me something today that was so a$$-backwards & wrong So I'll just let you think you've known me for oh so long I'll let you ponder & speculate on what you think I need Or how you think a relationship is "so important to me." I'll let you just assume that you think I can't live without it But truth is - I've been wayyy over "lovey-dovey" sh!t Like I've told you before over and over - I've NEVER been in love 'Cause nobody yet has fit that size of glove Yet, there is one more question I must ask you - Did NOTHING I ever say to you strike you as not truth? Let me ask you - why'd you choose to lie to me? Did you think I wouldn't figure it out eventually? Why tell lies when u got a gun - & u ain't scared of sh!t? So what is it that u seemed 2 PURPOSELY forget? Why was that thing the only big one u failed 2 mention? Why is that, tho, if u didn't have any ill-intentions? The "niece" u babysit is ur daughter - isn't she? No wonder why u asked how I got ur last name, initially 'Cause u tried 2 hide her - 'cause u know I hate kids But 2 try & hide an ACTUAL child that lives? If u knew from the beginning u had no intention of being mine Then why the fvck did u waste my time? I told Asia u stole it then gave me her pix yesterday I have her # now - 'cause stalking her Instagram ain't ok A b!tch from ur past ripped your heart out, 2? Yet every single woman is an experience of her own - brand new I don't even know what you gained from afar betraying my trust You're so incredibly wrong if u think I need a dude so much Hello, pen-pal who I feel has betrayed my trust I'm sorry like most fvcking dudes - you're blinded by lust I had a feeling deep in my heart somewhere you were being fake In that portion of my grass, I forgot to cut heads off the snakes Clip that grass - & chop all the poisonous snakes in half 'Cause those snakes are ordered 2 deceive, lie, hurt, and trap They'll fvck u over any fvcking way they possibly can 'Cause I'm telling you that hardly ANYONE but u can understand