Speculations
I know there's something you wanna say
'Cause you ain't the same as yesterday's yesterday
You're far more distant from me then you used to be
Something's wrong - stopping you from being free
You're choking on whatever it is you wanna say
I promise though, I'll be totally okay
I promise whatever you say - I'll eventually move on
'Cause people have been doing this to me for far too long
Why do I feel like you've told me lies?
Why do I feel like - now - our friendship's compromised?
You told me something today that was so a$$-backwards & wrong
So I'll just let you think you've known me for oh so long
I'll let you ponder & speculate on what you think I need
Or how you think a relationship is "so important to me."
I'll let you just assume that you think I can't live without it
But truth is - I've been wayyy over "lovey-dovey" sh!t
Like I've told you before over and over - I've NEVER been in love
'Cause nobody yet has fit that size of glove
Yet, there is one more question I must ask you -
Did NOTHING I ever say to you strike you as not truth?
Let me ask you - why'd you choose to lie to me?
Did you think I wouldn't figure it out eventually?
Why tell lies when u got a gun - & u ain't scared of sh!t?
So what is it that u seemed 2 PURPOSELY forget?
Why was that thing the only big one u failed 2 mention?
Why is that, tho, if u didn't have any ill-intentions?
The "niece" u babysit is ur daughter - isn't she?
No wonder why u asked how I got ur last name, initially
'Cause u tried 2 hide her - 'cause u know I hate kids
But 2 try & hide an ACTUAL child that lives?
If u knew from the beginning u had no intention of being mine
Then why the fvck did u waste my time?
I told Asia u stole it then gave me her pix yesterday
I have her # now - 'cause stalking her Instagram ain't ok
A b!tch from ur past ripped your heart out, 2?
Yet every single woman is an experience of her own - brand new
I don't even know what you gained from afar betraying my trust
You're so incredibly wrong if u think I need a dude so much
Hello, pen-pal who I feel has betrayed my trust
I'm sorry like most fvcking dudes - you're blinded by lust
I had a feeling deep in my heart somewhere you were being fake
In that portion of my grass, I forgot to cut heads off the snakes
Clip that grass - & chop all the poisonous snakes in half
'Cause those snakes are ordered 2 deceive, lie, hurt, and trap
They'll fvck u over any fvcking way they possibly can
'Cause I'm telling you that hardly ANYONE but u can understand
Copyright © Holly Knoles | Year Posted 2024
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