Speak On It

How do you deal with something you didn’t think needed to be dealt with. Something you just brushed off and ignored. It wasn’t important. Its okay, I’ll get over it. Untill one day. One moment. It all comes back in a different light. Or darkness should I say. You didn’t feel this way about it before. So Why now? Why is my heart racing? Why am I struggling to breath??? Why don’t I feel calm anymore??… I want to speak about it, but the words don’t seem to pass my lips. Asif it’s stuck. Read. They say read others experiences see how they deal with it. So I did.. PTSD it seems. Makes sense. But How do you have a brain disorder and NOT know. Re-experience.. It’s happened before. Why did you take me back to that place. I know you didn’t intentionally want to make me feel like that. It wasn’t your fault. But yet it was. I know you love me. But you didn’t listen. I said No.