Sorry To My Unknown Lover

Sorry to my unknown lover Sorry to my unknown lover. I am so sad that you will be with another. I am so scared of falling in love. I am more scared of not being loved. My head is so full up with ghosts. You will be the one I miss the most. I’m afraid that I have given up. I think that I have said enough. I must go to save you from me. I must stay silent and set you free. I cannot, put you through this. I will not, put you through this. I will stay alone and cry and die. I will pray in another life, I am stood at your side. I have crashed over a cliff, Because I fell in love and it smashed me to bits. I have already chosen why. I have already been convinced by my own lies. I couldn’t be there for you and stand up tall. I can barely breathe or stand at all. I couldn’t give you all you need. I couldn’t stand to let you see, The broken thoughts inside my head. They are overflowing with regret And every word I never said, Sticks into me like pins and in the end, I know I will have to walk away; I have to go, there is no other way. I cannot look into your eyes, Without you seeing into mine. I cannot hide and tell a lie; I want to be with you, but I cannot, this time, Or any other time in space, Or any other way or place. Impossible is all I know, So I will fade and you will go And all I will be left with is a memory, The chance I never took and my misery. I turn my back to protect you, And when I turn back around, you have moved. I see the door as it closes shut… I’m sorry I couldn’t say…I love… (C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.