Sorry My Son

I am sorry my son You're too young to know this But I have tried to leave a good story with the ones I knew They only have the most terrible things to tell you about me Maybe it's their truth Or maybe my lies I wanted to love you Be the best parent I could be But when you slept so soundly I was ashamed of my loneliness Not the kind of loneliness cured by small feet. Oh! How I loved that sound. But this kind.......is the loneliness that never leaves. To be alone so deep of the heart, it sounds foolish to speak on it When the time is come, The people who will raise you after my time comes to an abrupt end Will never have that loneliness to give you As the only thing you'll have left of them To my son oh! How I love, loved you... Remember I was never lonely with you But the darkness in my head wants to play with the darkness of my heart