Somewhat

I have crushes like everyone else what intrigues me is that I have no idea what they are thinking conversations with them scare me because I have no idea what is coming next this has obviously gotten me nowhere it leaves my pondering are my feeling everlasting or just for the moment a envious feeling occurs when observing other individuals who handle things quite handily I would imagine I carry this weird aura clouding me, weird to other people and to myself at times I don't know what to think of myself but I hope my feeling are somewhat cute