Solitude

Solitude: Distressful Afflictive Merciless Unbearable solitude, When you are present, Time immobile remains, And Each second an eternity of intolerable Suffering becomes. At such moments, We implore Time to advance, To accelerate its pace, To hurry up For The next second The next minute The next hour The next day to come, So as The pain to decrease, Our agony to lessen, And us to be liberated from distress, From our affliction and from Our ordeal But Time – a sadist- unmoved stays, Mocking us And Instead of picking up speed, it is Dragging its leaden feet, enjoying thus itself With Our perpetual torture, Hence, we, Disappointed by Time's unhurried stance, Absorbed by its immobility, Let ourselves sink deeper and deeper into our hopelessness, Till we reach the deepest point of Our being, A place void of all thoughts, Of absolute silence and of intense Anguish! At that point We wish: To shout To scream To yell To howl But No voice is possible to be heard. No one is there to listen to our call of distress. And then In the darkest hour of solitude, At the culminating point of desolation, When we thought all is lost, we realize to our surprise that We are not alone, WE WERE NEVER ALONE! A tenant is there with us, A tenant, beyond the limits of ourselves, Of our understanding, Of our awareness, A tenant who looks at us with affection With compassion and most of all With love, Unconditional love, True Love, Yes, it is HIM The only ONE HE who was there before us And Will be here into eternity After we are gone: GOD HIMSELF! We look at His Holy visage, and we discern an Apologetic expression for Having put us through this tribulation to be able to make HIS presence to us, is known! He had tried before to approach us on many occasions, During the period of our good fortune, Of our successes and our achievements But We had ignored HIS calls at that time, You see, we didn’t need any help then, For We thought every achievement of ours Was our doing We had the erroneous notion that Everything was under our firm control And that We were INVINCIBLE But Now we know better for He has Revealed to us the truth! © Demetrios Trifiatis 19 January 2021