Soiled soul salvation

Soiled soul salvation that's what I'm hoping for can these bent bones of endless sin fit through the eye of a needle and into heaven Heaven is where the saved and forgiven go when their finished bottom feeding from this poison fishbowl so, I've read -so I'm told. What we have in common is that everyone wants to know if there's life after this life does lt go on forever or does our chalky soul hit a black brick wall of nothingness and whisper... "is that all there is?" Doesn't there have to be a reason for all of this one cell to a trillion stars never reached rocket ship wishes the blind inbred offspring of ego and technology. Maybe I wasn't the best candidate to gift life to... didn't pray efficiently to many insults and not enough praise. I was a fraud in all honesty but you can't say my imperfections weren't perfect I mastered imperfection that in itself has worth but is it worthy of better realms... and what of hell? Soiled soul salvation can a bent freak fit through the eye of a needle and into heaven maybe I can slither in the back door... soiled soul salvation I'm praying for soiled soul salvation.