So Live and Love

I didn't DECIDE to be unsure when he holds me in his arms. I didnt DECIDE to question it the first time he mumbled "I love you' I didnt DECIDE to sit on my bed late at night wondering if he actually cared I didnt DECIDE to be just a bit panicky that he wouldnt show after being 5 minutes late I didnt DECIDE to be worried that he could stop caring at any. given. moment. I DID decide to give him a chance because I deserved to be loved and cared for and maybe hes the one to help me through what others did to me. I DID decide to let him kiss my hand and tell me that he'll kiss it forever. I DID decide to smile and kiss him and tell him I loved him just as much, maybe more I DID decide to text him my worries at 1am and answered when he called immediately I DID forgive him for being late, he couldn't find his keys and he loves me. I DID decide to accept that he loves me and that yes, he could leave, but even if he did, I'll be alright. And I'm even better by his side right now, so live and love in the moment.