Snowy Sun
—How to Thank Life for the Blow—
O Life, give ear—when thy disdainful tongue
strikes where my name has learned itself to stand,
and one syllable, though lightly flung,
falls through the ribs of what I understand—
must I, because the fibres ache,
call love a falsehood for the wound's own sake?
I have known speech accomplish what the sword
could scarcely do, though blood would mark its art;
one word may leave the mouth, yet lodge unseen
within the bastions of the listening heart,
and after the speaker's breath is gone,
still toll beneath the silence like a bell at dawn.
I will not crown abasement into grace,
nor make diminishment a lover's creed;
no tenderness requires me to efface
the sovereign line beyond which I recede;
I name the wound—and naming it, I know
that love does not make the injury less so.
Then reason broke its staff: the trees drove roots
up through the blue, beyond the mortal span,
while streams forsook their valleys and their routes
to climb the hills as silver rivers ran;
gravity, whose laws were known,
withdrew—and there arose the Snowy Sun alone.
Its pallid fire made winter's darkness bright,
as though the night had learnt another name;
the cold became a species of light,
and frost burned upward without ash or flame;
a flower drank midnight from its stem,
while stars grew black in a diadem.
O Life, give ear—I have not loved thee less
because thy hand has schooled my blood in pain;
nor shall I dress self-erasure as tenderness,
nor kneel to prove the bond I would retain;
the wound may enter, but it shall not reign
within the sovereign chamber of my name.
The blow is thine; its meaning is not thine—
what thou hast done shall never become my name;
I may defend the sovereignty that's mine
and still preserve the embers of the flame;
I may refuse the hand that deals the pain,
yet keep the love that taught my heart to remain.
Thus, Life, if thou shouldst strike me, let me feel—
I shall not forge an adamantine breast;
nor sanctify the hand that makes me kneel,
nor call self-betrayal love's profoundest test;
I can say No where dignity commands,
and still let love burn cleanly in my hands.
And should the trees root heavenward once more,
while rivers climb the hills in argent flight,
and the Snowy Sun suspend above the shore
its frozen aureole of fathomless light,
I shall not ask what overturned the blue—
I shall remain; and love shall remain too.
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