Smoke Train, Brain

Men say they don't like masculine women, but will put you in a position to where you have to be one. Where is the money coming from if my hands aren't the ones that are dirty. The responsibility laid on the shoulders like a 400lb Boulder, make it work. Not good enough to want to be with, but good enough to make a mother. Inconsistencies constantly delighted in as we sit in silence. Now we get to be strong for more than just ourselves. Masculine surface but you will never see the inside, the part that gets lonely and damn the part where you get tired. Make it work. Hopeful in the thought that you may be changing but you remember the feeling of the steel toe on your foot when you get up in the morning. Smoke train brain, damn, your smoking again. They say let go of resistance just for today. Make it work. But today is really yesterday on the third shift schedule. Little eyes and hands reaching for you but you can't lift them because the pain in your back but you still have to find a way to lift their spirit. Remember to remind them you are doing everything you do for them but time will be short until the weekend when you really need to sleep from the lack of hours you missed during the week, Trying to hold the heaviness in your eyes so you can see them smile. How many years has it been now.. I'm loosing count and weight. What's that mean? The family constantly watching but never calling. She must be on drugs or some . That's always the go to. Make it work. Oh you got a little attention huh? Don't rush it, you know what happened last time. Didn't he say he didn't like masculine women anyway. Smoke train brain, your smoking AGAIN. Can you just slow down for a minute because I can't. Time to start over again just for today as they said or for the masculine yesterday. FOCUS, your not finished. Those boots are heavy but so is your heart. Time to work on some more . Make it work. C.W