Sleep Over

On a mattress on the floor A warm summer night A fan from above And a snore from next to me I have my best friend for a sleep over As I have one of my sleepless nights A night of disappointment A night of terrifying feelings As I think that I am alone As I think that no one is here As I think of what made me happy I think of what was I think of who I want Who I cannot have Who will never be mine The pain is taking over My face is fading My heart is failing My life is a game played by too many