Silent Cries

Im look happy on the outs but Im sad deep inside. I know none of ya'll mother ****ers gonna see my silent hidden cries. Death's right around the corner so if I die I die with honor not pride. In this life of mine everyday is a do or ****ing die. Here in the land of OZ you face the truth even if it's a ****ing lie. Here you either do or you don't, ain't no such thing as giving it a try. Here fantasy ain't *****once the truth hits you finally realize. I was once a young lost soul trying to fit in and be just another one of the "guys". Smoking weed getting drunk feeling so dam low while getting so dam high. Flying so dam low at the same time walking so dam high Im fly. I know not one person here can understand or know my hidden cries. The only one who can truly understand me is the one who I pray to in the sky. I know I look happy but I feel like *****from side to side, I need to better understand my own silent cries......