She's Like Headlights

Red
My face burnt under that stare
Shame
How could she possibly guess?
No one else
No one else would ever guess
No one else could ever tell me what not to do
No one could ever affect me like that
Burning
I have sunshine always at my back
It blurs my form and no one can see the truth
But her eyes are shaded
The glaring, staring light holds no sway for her
I can’t hide in the sun anymore
I’ve tried moonlight
When she’s not around
Lunar, no one sees me
The joke is silent
Quiet jester, silent clown
I am changing like the sky
I hid in the sun clouds and air
The moon reveals me in gently cruel light
She is insatiable 
She demands a proper answer
Asks to see, asks to know
“Why?”  
Over and over again it’s “Why? Where? How?”
I don’t have an answer
I’m caught in the headlights
Once again, in class, unprepared
Interrogation
That’s what it is, by all rights
Can I stop?
Can she stop me with just a word?
Is there a point?
I had questions of my own, 
But then even she never remembers that 
I could always ask before, 
There was always a maybe before
What can I say now? 
I can’t even move the words through my throat
I could always ask her
But I always question everything
I question her questions to me

Copyright © Lacey Petty | Year Posted 2007

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