She Hoped, But

"You deserve the entire universe." "You are amazing, and if only you could see yourself the way I saw you, you'd believe that." "I'm always here for you, because I love you to bits, and I'll never stop loving you. No matter what you become." "Suicide isn't worth it; you'd lose so much! The talent you were given, the love we have for you; the treasure trove hidden inside you!" Those were words she'd seen before Sometimes, she'd written them Other times other people wrote them, But it was always for someone else; Someone who truly suffered worse than she did. But that didn't stop her from wishing That someday Someway, Someone would take her hand And say those very same words. She hoped that on a day When she truly felt like ending her life On a day when she was just done with it all On a day when the pain was too much to bear alone She hoped that like in the many fairytales And fictions And poems she'd read And the pictures she'd drawn Someone cared about her the way she cared about them Someone would notice that her soul was going to be crushed soon That her heart was plummeting into hell And take her hand. She hoped that just as she teetered on the brink of death, A caring hand would reach out and grasp her wrist and pull her back And a voice would say, "You don't have to die today." She hoped, but that was all she could do, Because that person Apparently didn't exist.