She Feels

She was lost And didn't know how to feel anymore. She was both happy and sad At the same time. Nobody knew how she really felt She kept it quiet She kept it for herself. She's lost so much And gained so little. She never felt good enough For anyone. Not even for herself. She walked with a smile Like everything was fine. But deep down she knew She was living a lie. She would forgive Over and over again. She expected too much She never learned to let go. What she wants is to not feel Because when she does, All she feels is pain. She wishes that ... She never had to feel again.