She Cried

She cried, She died inside over and over again, She was trapped in herself and she had no way of escaping. Taking drugs to dull the mud that's been in her eyes for years. She's so far away from reality that it's like she is constantly sleeping. She has to remind herself what's fictional and what's fact because the hallucinations wouldn’t let her breath, they’d lie to her every chance she gets. Turning her mom into a monster not butterflies suddenly this high becomes a nightmare. One she had been fighting for so long, 16 and still traveling the same rode as so many younger than her. She didn't listen to all the voices that tried to tell her what she was missing because truly reality is the thing that makes life worth living. To her reality was the guy who had raped her constantly when she was young, Why choose reality when you could live in a dream world where everything had excuses. Not only could she not recognize the girl who cried constantly in the mirror but she'd done so many things to herself that even her eyes were a different color. It hurt so bad not to remember so she continued to fade until soon it seemed better. In an idiotical world where there were always smiles, It wasn't until she got help that she realized the real world was never always pleasant. It was filled with hate and lies and pain but that's something real and something she needed to face. Something she needed to open her eyes to, life would never be cake and she couldn't have her victory without tasting poison at least once. So when the tears dried and the wounds healed she signed up for a special thing a thing called GED and she got it.