Shatter Me

Your arms engulfed me as you swirl me through the air, Sensing the unrelenting effort put into me, The desire to gain my trust and love, Longing even though you barely know me, begging me to let you in; Waiting for me to be ready to give it all. The fear, the trauma, the hurt. Somehow fading away with that soft kiss, Like ashes falling to the Earth during a war. A war with my mind, my heart, my soul. The war that you knew how to mend and pull me away from. The comfort, hope, desire. Things that terrify and haunt my mind, All coming back with those broad hands. A feeling unable to be replicated by anyone, Found only in the warmth between your neck and shoulder. The soul-binding connection in your glassy blue eyes, Like an image of Heaven in all its glory. The smell of pansies and daffodils and roses, Haunting my senses with every look. Letting my heart be yours, knowing it was right. Eating together, laughing together, Everything my soul had longed for. The dancing, the love found in your beautiful soul. Your careful touch remembering the things before, Trying to unravel what they had done. It all slipped away in a heartbeat. The gates of my mind closing, the chains on my soul returning. That undying love still there; that trust still lent out, The past returns yet different with you, Even when you shatter me. Charm me, love me, shatter mer. A never-ending cycle running my life, Controlling my head, breaking my soul. Lending out my heart, getting nothing in return, A gaping void left behind.