Shaky Reliance

he said: i'm a woman of steel... he doesn't know this a fraud seal... my heart and soul on a "hill".. wishing nothing but complete heal... i have long live to love.. knowing, these all wants to have.. i have taken so many risks.. fallen unwavering to various tricks.. i am not a materialistic.. nor am i a someone plAtonic.. i got heart small not gigantic.. yet, it beats huge with ethics.. i fought hard within hot waters.. seeking fortresses, guarding to buffer.. i conquering with God who gives power.. no less, success it yonder... patience.. patience.. patience.. i don't want to be on defiance though, i am of silence appearing tough and of calmness.. tell you what, inside is a shaky reliance.