Self Doubt

I try to keep a swagger in my step, i try to walk boldly, but how can I when my own self confidence cannot hold me? My self-esteem ain't that low, but then again it ain't that high. And sometimes I don't know who i am, where i'm going or why i'm so confused. Still I strive to hold my head up; and tell myself never to give up or give in Because this is a fight for my life and i'm in it to win. But i'm so unsure when I step to the plate Should I take my own chances, make my own choices, or leave it up to life and wait? I don't want to choke and make dumb mistakes. You can't turn back time in this movie; There is no second take. So I leave it up to GOD and give HIM full control. I choose to let HIM take all the meaningless pieces of my life and make me whole.