Seeking Freedom

Alcohol sodden nights spent remembering you Sitting in a corner of a crowded bar An island of contemplative misery in a riotous sea Drowning my misery Searching for solace at the bottom of an emptied bottle And ironically never finding it The pain of your loss runs too deep A wound manifest in every fiber of my being Scarring every vein Searing through my beleaguered heart A bittersweet aching pain I carry this agony everywhere I go I dodge from inebriation to melancholy Trying my hardest to escape your memory But you haunt me like a stubborn ghost I see you everywhere In a ray of effervescent sunlight In the deepest shadows of a lonely night Your face is an imprint on every facet of my life I’m doomed to hold you forever in my mind’s secret sight But maybe one day… If I drink enough Dance enough Live my life as if your shadow didn’t hover over it… Maybe then I can discard you as you discarded me And be at last – joyously - free