Secrets

I want to hold you so badly, Images of you fill my dreams. You're not there when i wake, Only a pillow to stifle my screams. I see you so vividly, as if you're here, A vision of liquid green emeralds, instead of eyes. Blond, wavy hair, with a mind of it's own, When i think of that smile, a piece of my heart dies. If i could stay asleep longer i would, It seems as if it's the only time I'm at peace. Awake my mind races, and i can't think straight, Asleep is the only time my pain appears to cease. Heart, heavy with memories of our laughter, They keep flooding my soul, and i'm drowning. How do i get over your abandonment, and betrayal? There is no more happiness, only me frowning. A sadness, so intense, there is no escape, I'm failing miserably, trying to be brave. Tears slide down my face in a great magnitude, As i lay these flowers on your grave...