Second Chance At Love Or Just Forget It

Can this only be the begining of love, He was perfect in my eyes, before he wanted me to change, whether it was my body or my looks, or even the style of my clothes, I was too young, to realize that he only wanted me for one thing and one thing only, and that was to satisfy his lust for the flesh, But i still loved him, Even through the betrayal of finding him with a bestfriend, Who was suppose to never betrayed me, Even through sacred oatrhes declared since a young age. I did not need this misery in my life but i continued to love him, Until one day I decided to give up on love itself. I grown cold ,and so distant, I did not socialize and I had become the outcast in Highschool. No one wants to date a girl weho is cold remote and distant, I am bound and determined to find the right lover in my life, But who can i ask advice for who is truely my friend and will not betray me the way my own bestfriend did!!