Scavenger

"Want to be alive today while my future is uncertain Scavenging is all my soul seaks" it was my Instagram status these words are meant to represent us nothing in this entire world would defines me truly because the vision , the question and the confusion I have cannot be expressed freely I always wanted to be at peace and wanted time to heal me but what if confusion ,uncertainty and stability is the real answer you feel me? why is the non existence of any Bond or attachment feels like home , it excites and thrills me I haven't found any word that can define this state other than 'Scavenger' it's like being a The Hulk 'a loner' but still sometimes ! an Avenger you know what is the thing that makes me most scared ? settlement, satisfaction, stability it is said ! everytime I look at a movie that ends with "happily lived Ever After !" It gets to my nerve , for me that's boring end of chapter such boring end is the last thing I want, I'll rather die after or maybe the real question is about the meaning of life when I think about it everything loses its importance like a blunt knife but still there is no answer to this question I tried to find it !! I am not lazy!! but the question itself is unclear, that drives me crazy !! how can you find the answer if you don't know what you are finding how can you navigate if you don't know which vehicle you are riding how can you be so sure that society is right, that nothing is in the hiding how can I find out the real meaning of my existence because this thought is overwhelming and astounding Yeah ! I can hear myself Ishwar....... crazy I am sounding but let's find out what this life really mean not by thinking about it but by seeing the unseen let's be that wanderer , that Traveller, that dreamer the person who wants to know the truth about being Alive just a lonely SCAVENGER !